I feel like shit to be honest. I'm not really sure why I try anymore. It seems like I end up just hurting the people around me. I never intend to its just sort of how it happens.
All those years ago when my best friend called me an asshole. The friends that came and gone. They're right I think. I'm just not a good person, I'm not a good friend. I don't know what to do about that.
I need therapy or something like that I think. I just need to get out of here and try to survive I guess. I'm such a fucking idiot.
I hate all of this.
I'm sorry for the pain I caused everyone. I regret everything.